Ever since I was a child, I've wanted to remain unnoticed. For many reasons, really- just what I was submitted to at a young age and things alike. I wouldn't go as far as to say I had it rough in childhood, but I certainly was mentally... different. Perhaps it would've been that way whether I was influenced by the world or not.
I've never understood the want... the feeling of necessity to be in everyone's attention, to always be in the spot-light.
My family didn't understand this.
"But, that doesn't make any sense," and, "You're just making this up! EVERYONE wants to have interactions- no man's an island, after-all," are the types of words I'd hear strung together by family and others.
The family comments were the worst.
For some reason, they thought since they were family, they should be able to tease, humiliate, and torture me.
"But, we're related- it doesn't count!"
Now, don't get me wrong. I'm usually one of an apathetic nature. I'd like to think of myself as professional and proper, but they just...
Not that it matters any more.
No, it doesn't matter at all any more.
I've removed those toxic people from my life for good. I've gotten far away from them, and now I live peacefully.
And I know they do, too.
It's a dandy little thing a gun can do.